Its a mixed up muddled up shook up world..........

Hellooooo,
It is Monday night, lets see...um 11 days until my boys leave for Alaska. My daughter leaves for dance team camp tomorrow. She is my angel. Literally, I think God put her here on earth to be so sweet and loving to her brothers, her dad and to me. She is so innocent. Recently her boyfriend broke up with her. She came back from a dance intensive, all excited to see him as he was gone most of the beginning of the summer. He broke up with her that night on the telephone. Her heart was broken for real. First time...and you know, it hurt me to see her hurt. It is something I can't help her with. I'm just here and she knows I am. She has lots of friends. She hopes to truly be able to stay friends with this guy as she says that he was her "best friend" before they started to go out with each other as boyfriend and girlfriend.
My Lucas, he has a concert in Madison on Wednesday. He can't find the tickets that he bought two weeks ago. He is not happy. Somehow it seems that he is angry at me. I miss my son who is happy, talkative, fun loving, interactive and kind. I know he is still here, but just not for me at the moment. My oldest will be leaving for Alaska as well. He is taking a calculus class this summer. It is a kick in the butt for him. I feel for him as it is a requirement within his major. I believe that he is not being true to to class nor to himself. I do know that he is true to his motorcycle and to his friends and to his computer! Conflicts of interest all over the place!! ARGH!!! I wish that my kids all could be at a settled point in their lives. When they aren't settled, I'm not settled. Maybe I am destined to never settle again. Maybe that is why I long for Peace so much. yes I want Peace on a global level, but initially I need it at a personal level. I love my kids with all my heart....more than life itself. Do they know that? Do they realize that? I am beginning to think they can't understand that just yet. I just want them to all be safe so they all can have fun, adventure, challenges and friends forever. I hope that when I look back on my life today in lets say, um....5ish years, that my kids will have a more mature look on life and all of us will be alive and well and have a huge respect for one another! Hang in there kids...go for it, enjoy and be safe. Remember, I love you!